Always the copilot

This is not the first blog I've started. Just the first one I've decided to actually pilot.

Ever feel like everthing you do is being driven by someone else? I'm always the copilot. Knowledgable enough to drive just not driven enough to take charge.

Yeah, I'm that way. A little lazy, a little angry, a little laughable.

Well, I've made some progress ya know. I'm not a total slacker. And it's not every day we can be in charge, I think.

Here are the areas of my life I would like to pilot (no particular order):
1. My weight
2. My career
3. My marriage
4. My children's education
5. My hobbies

I've already made some headway with my career. I started a new job 3 months ago where I am now a manager. Yup! That's right, I have a team of 5 and they report to me - someone actually thought I could do this! I'm busting my rump to prove them right.

Ok, onward...

My weight, oh my aching back, fat ass ways must stop. I have used excuse after excuse. I. am. so. done. Today, yes today, I began my new weight loss phase. I am not taking no for an answer and I am not going to explain away my obsession with self destruction. I am about to turn 38 years old and I feel like I'm 60. The fat has gotta go. 30 lbs to start.

My marriage, well, um, if you must know it's my 2nd. Definitely filled with more love than the last but also filled with more challenges. We both have 2 kids from our previous marriages and 1 little dude together. Yup, count 'em, that's 5 altogether - yikes. But I've also started this by having my husband join me in my quest to lose weight. He needs to drop 30 as well.

Educating the kids. That one's a little tougher. I'll focus on my biological children since I can't do as much about my step-children. My daughter has a tough time in math. But I just got approval from the ex to help pay for a summer tutor. As for my son we need to work on his focus a bit. We'll be doing some focus practice this summer. He's a procrastinator big time. That's gotta stop.

Hobbies. I've decided to take up some photography. I think it might actually be an artistic outlet I could be half ok at. I've started my research and I've learned what shutter speed is, what aperture means, what ISO is and some other tid bits. My reward for losing 30 lbs will me a new $800 camera.

That about covers it. No more copilot.

The copilot is dead.

The pilot is born.